How are you Doing (part 2)

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h yes. Yesterday was a bad day.

I found myself in a pickle. I felt like I needed someone, but I didn't know who I could call. Or Trust. That got me thinking about the people who may feel that way about me....(and therefore not be honest with me). Today I woke up thinking "Hmmm...I wonder what it is about ME that would make people not feel free to be honest??"

Anyway, in the light of the morning, I can all of a sudden think of at least 2 people I could have called. That makes me feel better. But it leaves me soberly thinking about what areas of my life I need to work on in order to make myself 'safe' for people. To have in me, the very qualities that I was in need of yesterday. Can someone trust me? I think so....but do they think so?

So...all these thoughts because of a bad day, and the need for a friend. I guess you really learn alot by experiencing pain. Perhaps that's the sweetness of life.....you walk thru pain, and you turn that pain into a sweet balm that causes you to be able to care for others going through the same thing.

When someone's mother has cancer....I can right away go to them and talk. I know what it's like. I don't find myself at a loss for words of comfort. However, I wouldn't have known what to say BEFORE my Mom (or Dad) was sick. Some people just simply know how to relate to others....but for me, it's not so easy. I am a feeler. I related to people by feeling. If I know what it's like to 'feel' what you feel....I can be a much greater support to you than if I'm just imagining what your pain is like.

Not that I'm anxious for more pain to come my way, mind you..... ;)