Hi there. I'm Yvonne, and I'm a wife, Mom of 2 and business chick. Welcome!
I think those two things are closely linked, if not the same thing for me.
The last two days have been horrible. From frustration with Ontario Bureaucracy (trouble getting our licenses renewed, trouble with health cards, trouble with licensing vehicles)to a boiling point of frustration and loneliness.
Since moving, I have had a hard time with food issues. Its SO hard in times of stress not to fall off the wagon and eat stupidly. Thankfully, that doesn't mean what it used to..... (I haven't really gained any weight) but it feels chaotic just the same, and it's not the way I should be eating. I feel frustrated, but i can't seem to stop the freight train.
Today two things happened. First, I worked on a book cover that I really enjoyed. It's for a pre-teen book that is really cute, and the artwork I was given to work with was phenomenal. I don't usually get to work on children's books, and I loved it! The bright colors, the fun themes, the rounded fonts. It was so refreshing. It didn't feel like work, but more like play. I felt happy with the outcome, and the author was completely thrilled with it too. (click HERE to view it)
I think it comes down to control. In a city where I feel lost most of the time, and not in control of my surroundings....I feel flustered. It's like being a balloon that has slipped from the grip of a child's hand, and is just floating around, being tossed by any slight breeze. In that state of 'unknowing', the food issues flare up. The emotional issues flare up. In short, my dominoes fall down. Total chaos in my head.
Today, making that book....one little piece came into place. I sure couldn't control the stupid government hoops with licensing our vehicles, but I could create (and complete successfully) this book. No one was telling me I was doing it wrong, no feeling of frustration...just ease and enjoyment.
Then tonight I decided to go for a run. I haven't run since moving here, and part of me didn't want to because I was afraid to get lost, or uncomfortable with the unfamiliarity of the place. But I did it, and I made it back home. I was proud of myself for doing it, and felt like that balloon was slowly coming back down towards Earth, and could see it's string down below.
Tuesday, August 28, 2007
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Yvonne, I don't know if you remember me. I lived in Winnipeg for awhile over 2 yrs ago, Jeremy is my husband. I think he helped you with your cd cover(?).
Anyways, I have been reading you blog for a while. You have made amazing progress in your lifes journey and I love how honest you are on you blog.
I think that you have been very brave to pick up and move from the city that you have lived all your life. I have moved alot, but it is part of my life, I have been doing it since I was 5.
As for Ontario Bureaucracy, I completely undersatand. I didn't get it before I moved out of province, and it actually shocked me how easy it was when we moved to Winnipeg.
One thing that I have found that helps when applying for things; is going to the government website. They uaually have a list of things that you need in order to apply. If you don't something is(ie gov issued marrige certifate). Call and they are usually helpful.
It is such a pain here in Ontario, and I'm sorry, it really doesn't make moving here easy.
I hope everything goes well with school in a few days. :)
I'm sorry to hear your last few days have been hard!
Way to go Yvonne!
Going for a run...good decision!
I'm glad you're starting to feel that the pieces will come together, because they will.
Probably not all in one week, but eventually. They'll be good days and bad days but nothing you can't handle.
And the book is really cute...cupcake club...how cute is that?
Well done.
Heart going out to you...
I thought of you tonight at the Sound of Music. Not sure why you came to mind there, but I was wondering how you were doing. Maybe it was the great music! :)
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